maybe its the pain, or the thought that your with him
maybe its this distance, sometimes i cant stand the distance
especially now, these words arent making things any better and sometimes i want out, but i thought we were in this together, it was always in your letters
forever seems now to be never, its forever now i never thought it sound so much better but i cant help being away, ive looked at all the letters i have written you, they'll be burning soon, its too much too, bear. how can this get me so scared.
we kept in touch, i wanted to love you so much
but this time it just had to be so rough, on me,
i didnt want to beleive what was said, maybe there just joking
its late nights for me wondering, worrying
but im not laughing, im just crying, im trying so hard, to try
not to beleive, i dont want to see, if this is true, to say the least it wont be, ethereal,
ive tried so hard, through all distress, ive torn through all this mess
to make this beautiful for you to see. its the only beautiful thing to me ,*now.